The mind boozing?

I have been thinking again.
I know I am getting tired about Kris. Whoever is coming in my life is not going to be interfered with the fact that Kris is in my life. This is so as i know he will get busy once more and it's about time that he will chuck me one side again. I will give him one bloody month and everything will get back to square one. I SWEAR!

I am not sure what will happen but I'm getting pretty fed up with him. Thus i don't care anymore.Yesterday happening makes me feel more worst. I realised that he is way too different from me and for me! I'm kind of ashame of him and I'm really sad to admit this as I see throught the difference in us.

Due to my confusion, i went walking around Lorong Limau, this morning to release my tension. All the way i thought and realy felt that we are not supposed to be together.
To make matter worst, he topped up my prepaid and will be doing it every week. The among of guilt and confusion i have only me myself and I can understand! *SADNESS*
Seriously,I am really sad on how confused person i can turn out to be!

Whatever it is, he will still keep on turning to me in life. I wonder where this will lead us? To hatred or marriage. I wonder!This mind boozing will never end till something bad or good happen!